UppaYonda

I know she’s living the good life in her Heavenly home, but life has been hard without my mom. It’s crazy because some good things have happened and some dreams have been realized. She has new grandchildren that she’s only seen from Heaven and the other ones miss her just as much as me.

I’ve felt like I was on cloud nine and I’ve come dangerously close to giving up. My brothers kept me here and I put way more on them than they could bare. They had to cast their cares onto Jesus, for me - and when all I could see is pain, they lifted me in prayer. 2022 was a rough year.

People always say if they could see their loved one just once more or talk to them once more or if Heaven had visiting hours that would ease the pain. I’ve never even been that strong. I don’t want a visit or a day, I want my mom with me, every day and even though she had been battling for many years, I would’ve been there for the battle… awaiting Victory. She was never supposed to die. What’s a momma’s boy without his momma?

I don’t even have any inspiration here. Just praying for all those who feel my pain and for the ones who don’t… love on your mom. I know it may seem like she will live forever but life can be very hard to understand. My heart is broken and I don’t know if I’ll ever see it fully mended on this side, but I will keep going because she did.

Because the race isn’t given to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, but to the one who endures: he will be saved. She endured some crazy pain and God saved her from a deathbed and called her home to be with Him. Oh death where is your sting? Oh grave where is your victory? When I see her again we’ll both be dancing, because victory belongs to Jesus.

I’mma endure to the end. I’mma make it Home too. Goin’ up yonder, to be with my Lord.